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Weeble Nation

We are a weeble nation

one that doesn’t quit.

We may be weird to others,

but we don’t give a shit.


We know Whose we are

and we know who to call.

It’s why we can get up

and smile when we fall.


Although far from perfect

a nation we are one.

Each unique in their greatness

Together, the powers’ just begun.


For we are dreamers and seekers

we won’t stand for less.

Speak out, create and stimulatefamily pole

the world we want to bless.


For others want to know

why it is we can go on.

At peace within the storms

our legacy when we’re gone.


We embrace each moment

knowing all we have is now

our destinies rush in

Our willingness proceeds the how.


For weebles wobble

and yes they fall. Then

rise up, shoulders back

and scale every wall.


We are a weeble nation

one that gives a shit

about being our genuine selves

and dreams that never quit.

Tessa Rue 2-3-14


My I AM’s

These are my daily I AM’s, hung above my shower, blown up unto six separate posters. I recite them each day. Some of them are currently true. Some of them are in progress. Some I speak aloud until I believe them myself (like being a directional wizard while wishing my GPS would work in Wal-mart!). ALL help me replace the negative thoughts I continually battle and remind me I AM 1Strongwoman!

Who Am I? Why Am I Here? What Am I Supposed To Do?

I AM God.

I AM divine and majestic just like my Creator.

I AM lovely, loving and lovable.

I AM strong.

I AM light and luminous.

I AM a writer.

I AM full of creative ideas whose time has come.

I AM the mind of God.

I AM an encourager.

I AM joy and laughter.

I AM prosperous.

I AM a dream catcher.

I AM full of hope.

I AM no longer afraid.

I AM beautiful and full of positive energy.

I AM a spokesperson for all oppressed women.

I AM called to spread a word of truth.

I AM entering into my destiny.

I AM unstoppable.

I AM free of condemnation.

I AM no longer affected by the good opinions of others.

I AM a thought provoker.

I AM a beacon of hope.

I AM genuine.

I AM on the road to success.

I AM a success.

I AM an excellent story teller.

I AM able to pay all my bills and creditors.

I AM able to do and go where ever I desire.

I AM a public speaker.

I AM a frequent guest of Oprah and Ellen.

I AM able to do, exceedingly, abundantly, far above all I could ever ask or think according to the power that works within me. And it IS working.

I AM excited with my life.

I AM finally recognizing my purpose here on earth.

I AM an unconventional speaker of truth.

I AM the voice of women who long to be set free.

I AM free to be the woman I was meant to be.

I AM not ashamed of my thoughts.

I AM not ashamed of my beliefs.

I AM not going to be silenced.

I AM here to let women know they are perfect just the way they are.

I AM to announce sexual freedom and identity freedom.

I AM to expose the lies of the media, the propaganda regarding body type, opinions of others,

and strike down the “they” voices!

I AM Terri Haynes aka Tessa Ruth and my voice will be heard.

I AM like Moses called to set captives free.

I AM fearless.

I AM a word warrior!

I AM a writer par excellence!

I AM woman hear me roar.

I AM a co-creator with God and the full embodiment of Him.

I AM no longer distracted by my circumstances.

I AM disciplined.

I AM able to concentrate on the task at hand.

I AM an excellent time manager.

I AM a directional wizard

I AM healthy and pain free.

I AM free of all addictions.

I AM one who lays down at night fulfilled, in peace.

I AM one who joyfully awakes full of anticipation.

I AM diligent and accomplish all my goals.

I AM proud to be who I AM.

I AM an excellent friend.

I AM a giver.

I AM a good listener.

I AM a lifelong learner.

I AM a communicator who loves all people.

I AM changing every day.

I AM a joyous traveler on an adventurous journey.

I AM a positive influence on Roger, our children, grandchildren and our friends.

I AM a smile seeker and smile creator.

I AM a world changer.

I AM wise and full of Truth.

I AM compassionate and full of understanding.

I AM patient with others and myself.

I AM a positivity pathfinder.

I AM a trailblazer.

I AM a dirty little freak within my covenent bed.

I AM loyal, trustworthy and faithful.

I AM the fluffy black sheep my siblings love

I AM genuine and honest with others, myself and God.

I AM full of consistency.

I AM a hard worker.

I AM surrounded by positive energy and an aura of love is my companion.

I AM love.

I AM a shining example of femininity and sexual energy.

I am Free to be all I was meant to be.




Visions Dancing in My Head

Visions Dancing in My Head

I am laying motionless and relaxed.  My body is a dead weight free from all tension.  I listen to my breathing. Slow and steady, in and out in and out the breaths flow. Breathing in all good, exhaling out from my body all negativity.  I am surrounded by letters floating all around me. They fill the spaces around me.  I let them freely sway up and down, side to side, free as birds.  I’m smiling enjoying their presence.  As they move they begin to gather and cluster together. One by one they unite forming words. Now words; big words, small words, nouns, verbs and adjectives, lots of adjectives are swaying and flowing in the air space which surrounds my body.  The words are now joined by punctuations entering in a banner like stream. One by one they enlarge to show themselves present. The period just IS. Shows up and then done matter of fact and moves on. The comma pauses ever so slightly then makes way for the question mark who blinks and multiples itself repeatedly for a few seconds. Then he to moves to allow semicolon and quotations to parade by my face.  The colon pops out with a balloon effect. One two boom.  The dash simply dashes along like a puppy. The dot dot dot explodes and then just waits in mid air.  Ahh yes then the finale comes as the exclamation mark slowly comes in and grows broader, thicker growing growing until….Wham the point is placed BOOm! And I laugh aloud.  Now my words are swimming around stirring each other up, stirring, formulating, creating, stewing.  The words begin to form phrases, sentences and paragraphs. Each perfectly chosen, each exquisitely placed. My relaxed body breathes deeply as my head opens up to expose my working brain.  The words are scurrying now like a whirlwind, swirling around, swirling around forming a cylinder tighter tighter until it looks like a cocoon all snug and safe.  The cocoon turns itself all around as if to show me all the words are perfectly spaced and protected.  I take a big breath in and the cocoon floats slowly and gently into my head and as my head once again closes itself my breathing slows and I peacefully rest. Just rest.  Then a sense of anticipation begins to build in my toes and works up my legs and flutters in my belly. My hands and arms are wide open as if receiving a special gift. My chest swells and my shoulders square up as my head takes note of the withdrawal about to occur.  My fingers are now rapidly moving and butterflies are emerging all around me. Beautiful, significant, unique, colorful, full of life energy fluttering and giving my face kisses.  I clearly see them enter the computer screen and as they do they turn into words. Pages and pages of words, spilling out of the printer. Page after page; until on my desk, standing upright is my book with a gleaming cover jacket with the perfect title. And there at the bottom in bold clear letters it reads by Tessa Ruth.