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CONTRACTIONS HAVE BEGUN and Tessa Ruth Will Soon Be Born!

Greetings! I AM Tessa Ruth and I am a writer. I have been journaling since I received my very first furry pink Diary with a lock and key. I have stacks of treasured journals. Some fancy doodle embossed leather, or steno pads, black & white bound composition books with wide lines for penmanship class (wow I‘m dating myself)! Flip pads and 3 subject spirals; a pile of 6” mini books and numerous notebooks with yellow or singed smoky pages, survivors of a house fire. In a quick glance just now, I found one dated back to 1987 and I haven’t even included those boxed in my closet.  So, are you published, you might ask?  Some 20 years ago, I was a Feature Writer for a local small town newspaper and had many stories published; also included in my closet box. I’ve published newsletters and designed curriculum for children when I ran a Day Care Center.  I began earlier this year blogging on WordPress in hit and miss fashion.  So, if seeing your name at the bottom of a page which others are reading is being “published” then yes I am published.  But my life-long dream is to pen inspirational books both true and fiction which are on the Best Sellers List. That to me will be the day I am a published author.

Like many folks do, I put off my dreams for various reasons. Raising children, working jobs I hated because they paid more than writing, fear of rejection and the ever popular procrastination to name a few. But always in the backdrop of my existence was a big emptiness, an unsatiated desire to become all I know myself to be. For years I was able to excuse it away, finding little bits of fulfillment writing in my journals. Then as our 7 children grew and flew from the nest, my priorities also began to shift.  Ahh, but if I continue here, I’ll give away more of my life story then I’m ready to share! I’d rather you read the journey of “1Strongwoman!” off the rack of your local bookstore!

You see I have been heavy with child for some 30 years and Braxton Hicks contractions have begun. I always thought I’d have 1 more baby girl and I would name her Tessa Ruth. Tessa because my beloved brother still calls me Tess and Ruth because that’s what my Mama wanted to name me. I realized Tessa Ruth, which will be my pseudonym (pen name), is my Book Baby. All of these years and most especially these last 6 months have been preparing me for my new life as Tessa Ruth, renowned Best Selling Author/Speaker. I have set specific goals and am on track to have my Autobiography manuscript ready for publication by December of this year. “And I’m so excited, that I just can’t hide it! I’m about to lose control and I think I like it, like it!!!”

I look forward to expanding and personalizing my blog page. I have committed to post Monday, Wednesday and Fridays just to keep my creativity well oiled and slay the fear dragon. I hope to find mentors and genuine critics who will help my passion bloom. Ultimately, establishing a forum from which I can explode my ideas to millions is my purpose for this blog site


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The Red Eyed Monster

IMG_1758 IMG_1761Just returned from a 4.6 mile bicycle ride via Airport Road. This route takes me past our local Municipal Airport for small aircraft. In the field nearest the road, there is a tall white tower with red lights on top. I’m not sure what exactly it is called, but believe it to be some sort of navigational tool for the pilots. The red lights can always be seen in the distance even through the fog. I have gone past this tower many, many times walking the dog, jogging, cycling and of course driving. When my GBs (Grandchildren) were younger, I would always point the tower out as a landmark. Over the years it became known as “The Red Eyed Monster”. Riding slowly by, smiling, excited little voices echoed in my head:

“We walked with Gramie to “The Red Eyed Monster”  said Ethan and Ashtyn to cousin Aila.

“No you didn’t! It’s to far!” Aila retorted.

“Gramie? Can we go see “The Red Eyed Monster?” Malachi would ask.

“Look! We’re passing “The Red Eyed Monster” that means we’re almost to your house Gramie!”

“Mama! I walked all the way to “The Red Eyed Monster” with Gramie today”! shared Aila.

Yesterday, I was driving my GB, four year old Rouge, home from school for a Gramie afternoon. As we were approaching Airport Road I was telling her about “The Red Eyed Monster”.  Rouge is one of my GBs who hadn’t been privy to the monster stories. She gave me a real live illustration of how perspectives are completely individual and personal to the one perceiving the information.

“Rouge, watch! We’re almost to “The Red Eyed Monster! We’re getting closer!” I said.

“A monster?? I don’t want to see a monster Gramie!” Rouge quietly answered, anxiously peering out the window.

“Oh, honey,” I told her. “It’s not a real monster! We just pretend it’s a monster.”

“Yeah, a pretend Monster”, She said, “Yeah, pretend.” She repeated.

I explained that the red lights helped the planes to see in the dark. That it was a tower and the lights looked like eyes. “Your cousins all decided it looked like a monster so that’s how it got the name.

“Look Rouge! There it is”, I exclaimed, pointing towards the white tower.

“Oh Gramie, is that the monster?” she inquired. We were now directly in front of it.

“It’s scary Gramie! Can it walk? Can it come get us?” she calmly asked me, as if she were formulating her “take” on the vision before her.

“No honey it can’t walk and it’s just make believe, remember? It’s just a tower for the planes not really a monster.” I told her, easing her mind.  Satisified with my explanation, she looked back at the white tower as the truck cruised past towards Wild Creek Road.

“That’s “The Red Eyed Monster, right Gramie” ? she asked solidifying her perspective.

“Yep Rougie, that’s “The Red Eyed Monster”! I happily agreed.

“Yeah! “The Red Eyed Monster”!

Snapping this picture today, I caught a glimpse of just how easily Rouge’s perspective could view the tower as a monster.

Having never seen the tower, and hearing the account of a “Red Eyed Monster” had her imagination conjuring up the worst. Then looking at the tower, one could almost imagine it coming to life and walking towards you.

Getting back on my bike smiling, I silently thanked Rouge and all of my GBs for every precious lesson they bring to life.

Get Over All Limitations

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I am extremely adapt at setting goals. Laying out a plan, putting up motivational reminders and creating check off lists actually excites me. I even come out the gates sprinting. You see where this is going, don’t you? Yes, the finish line is fairly daunting when the consistency in the middle is, well, lacking consistency! This Queen of distractions loves to ride rabbit trails. In fact, I’m doing it right now! One hour or 1500 words written towards my book, my morning goal, has been justified with, “At least I’m writing! Or, I’m warming up!” Ugh! Do you relate to my procrastinitis pain?

I have, however, obtained victory in certain areas of my life. Take Physical Fitness for example. Years ago at 238 pounds, I received my wake up call: losing my breath while chasing my Granddaughter. I was only 46 and my size 28 body struggled to keep up with that beautiful little bundle of energy. I determined if I wanted to be around to see my grandchildren s’ children, I best get proactive. I set a goal of 145 pounds. I consistently did 2 simple things. Eat ½ of what I usually did and move every single day. Two years and two rounds of P90X, plus many, many food logs later; I reached the goal. I was in the best shape of my life and eventually settled comfortably into size 8 staying between 157-162 for the last 5 years. So I know from experience that I can achieve my goals. I’m reminded that it was difficult in the beginning until good habits were firmly established and in place. I began to see and experience the results of consistency, which spurred me on to a healthy and fit lifestyle. The winded woman of yesteryear now swims 22 laps (goal of 32 which is a mile) 5 days a week and rode her bicycle to work yesterday (8 miles round trip)! So this 1Strongwoman will achieve my 1st Book Victory. I will Get Over All Limitations because every intention I set in my mind becomes my reality! I have just completed another writing goal this morning….Post on my blog every Monday, Wednesday and Friday.

I still have 7 hours before I go to work, so it’s off to the pool I go, pushing to obtain 25 laps today. Upon my return: Make that 1500 word goal my bitch!

Tanka Goals

This is my first assignment from the Daily Prompt. Today I was asked to write a Tanka (similar to Haiku) and here it is:

Words are my passion

Written to encourage all

struggling with life and

Challenging them to search for

answers already inside

To be effective

I have an ultimate goal

to write every day

1500 words or one

hour or whichever comes first

Post a blog every

Monday Tuesday Wednesday and

Friday and accept

the Daily Prompt challenge each

week keeping me on my toes

Before long my first

book will be a best seller

I will thank WordPress

for all the encouragement

and support building my blog